3 weeks

So I havent taken my citalopram for about 3 weeks because I was in hospital with meningitis and a brain infection and was not allowed to.
Now I know this is probabaly why I just want to curl up in a ball and dissapear, but for some reason I also don't want to take it.

I don't want to be at home
I don't want to be at uni

to be honest I don't want to be anywhere