I feel so trapped.
I don't want to do the internship anymore, but who am I even supposed to talk to about that? Who is my line manager? Arn't I supposed to have a mentor? Where are they hiding? Do I know their name? Do they know MY name? Have we even met?
And when I stop doing the internship... Where am I supposed to go? I feel like I couldn't go to St. Mikes anymore.
My relaxing day has so far involved about a billion fb messages asking where I am, a thousand emails nagging me about why haven't I done X or Y when I was apparently asked to do them via an email that was sent to me during a weekend away that EVERYONE knew I was on. Bare in mind that everyone thinks I'm at an away day today, so how exactly am I supposed to pick these emails up?
I don't want to be here. I don't want to do the internship. Which means I can't go to church anymore. Which means I have nowhere to go.
I want to disappear.
I.Just.Don't.Want.To.BE.Anymore.
I feel so abandoned.
