The Church of Wagamamas

I definitely failed to attend a service today. Instead I went to Wagamamas with Cath where we had many a theological discussion.

Surprisingly I'm not even being sarcastic.

There was talk of Jesus over cheese cake.

Church

I am supposed to be going to church tonight. Scary Times.

Maybe I shouldn't go.

A good friend once told me to avoid holy water in case I burn.

New Lingerie!

The last donation was made today and so my lingerie set should arrive soon!

Unfortunately people took to long to donate and so the original set is no longer being sold so I am receiving a nice little polka dot number instead.

But hey- Free Lingerie!

Heart Ache

Today I received a facebook message from her and it felt like my heart had been ripped from my breast.

Bang Bang my baby shot me down...

"You know Craig, I like you more and more... and I'll have to be careful incase I start liking you too much."

"cool"

"But being shot down with a 'cool' helps put that off I guess"

Now you may think me childish for saying "i really like you craig" but i consider it to be more immature to throw alteritive L words around nilly willy.

Also I am rarely sweet, kind, loving, or affectionate in anyway other than physical so to say that was a bit of a thing. To be shot down kinda sucks.

Alot.

So much for that then

I am already fuming at him

I dont appreciate being left high and dry, particually when I can't go out this evening as I planned because thanks to him i have two flipping purple marks on my face.

God he is such a git sometimes.

Things with Craig...

are better.

I think this is almost entirely down to the new system of lying down in the bed for a film with heads at the pillow end (my head in his nook) like we did before we were going out, rather than sitting up with our backs against the wall sideways.

I'm a girl of simple needs. Physical contact is important to me. I feel comforted and so I don't feel the need to make up for our lack of physical intimacy with sexually frustrated kissing which makes him feel like I am annoyed that we don't have sex.

He just never understood that it wasn't the sex I needed, it was the hugs and the general tenderness which is why I lept on the occasional kiss with the hunger of a starved animal. Now I don't feel like he only shows me affection when we are in public and he fancies asserting that he is a heterosexual male with a girlfriend.

yes things with Craig are getting better.

Let us hope that it lasts.

I am curious...

about Christianity and blah de blah de blah....

I just wonder if there is something missing in my life

But I also have long standing trepidations about any form of organised religion PARTICULARLY Christianity...