RIIIIGHT

I need something to cheer me up ASAP.
Cooking would usually do it but the kitchen is gross, need to tidy it.

Silly me

Listening to songs designed to fall inlove to, but ultimatly result in the stiches ripping on your broken heart.

EDIT: Oh my that sounded terribly emo, what i actually ment was- it's funny how love songs at the time make you happy, but when you have lost someone they become very upsetting to listen to.

funny how things work

I didn't think about him really once during the first term, spent the second term with him constantly at the back of my mind.
I need to go back to then, i need to go back to feeling how i did back then- rarely giving him a passing thought.

Who needs love? Not I.

Oh the bleakness of heartbreak.

Of course I knew exactly what I was setting myself up for when I started the coversation with him. I knew what the answer would be.
I just needed to put myself out of my misery, I needed to stop whipping a dead horse and holding onto hopes that had no chance to fruitition.
"Tell him you love him, just yell it out, everything will work out"
Oh wait... I just did that "I'll never stop loving you"
Everything wont work out, everything is over- deal with it move on. It is why you engaged in this hurtfull exersize anyway really, despite all your niave childish hopes deep down you knew why you were doing it.

So why am I still burning this flipping candle?
I just need to face facts.

I want to go to sleep and never wake up.