Is It Ok To Be Scared?

I don't really know who to talk to about this. I can't worry Chris; Nay isn't the kind of person you cry on the shoulder of; Felix & Russ were part of my "cut out friends who want to fuck me" purge; and I just don't know if I can talk to Craig about this.
I really think I want to talk to Craig about this.
I just don't think I can talk to Craig about this.
I'm really really scared.

I don't want the neurologist to tell me what we all suspect. There is no cure, so why bother knowing?
I know that's stupid but I just don't think I could cope with being told that I had it.